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It’s okay

More times than not, I’ve found myself in a never ending ferocious cycle, it goes something like this…

1. Something happens.

2. I get agitated/upset/annoyed and I let it engulf me.

3. My response to that, is based upon what I can see in my bubble; I fail to acknowledge the consequences that go beyond what I can see, lacking foresight.

4. Upon realising what I’ve done and how my response only encompassed me, and not thinking about the other, I drown myself in a sea of self pity and regret.

5. I cultivate a fear of repeating that action, instead of growing from it, and thus, my development is stunted because I don’t want to come face to face with the truth.

And that, ladies and gentlemen, is the bane of my life. As much as I love seeking out about my weaknesses, it’s still never a nice encounter. No-one ever wants to be face to face with their ugliest self, and face the true reality of what lurks within.

Me trying to run away from myself, and running away from my vices isn’t doing me any favours. Actually, what I’m doing is that I’m running away from my potential. I’m running away from the person I can be. I’m running away from growth. Instead of battling it, I push the dagger deeper into my back, and let it pierce my heart, endlessly.

So, this is a reminder for myself first and foremost, and anyone else who can relate, that its okay to make mistakes, it’s okay not to be perfect, it’s okay to meet your demons, just don’t let your demons defeat you. Fight them with every inch of yourself, and know that you are more than that.

It’s really, and truly, okay.

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The act of selflessness, that I will never forget.

The heat was blistering hot, so much so, that the rays dug into my back as I was holding my black straw hat and gazing out of the window as we were travelling to a school in Senegal. We were in a black jeep, me, my dad, my mum and my sister all huddled together against the old tattered leather as the smell of sweat, dust and smoke surrounded us. We had a water bottle to share between the 4 of us, as the rest had been annihilated previously by our thirst -we weren’t used to this heat. I was sweating in places I didn’t know I could sweat in, it didn’t help that I was wearing all black…

As we arrived at our destination, we clambered out of the car waiting for the others to come. The sweet sound of children’s excited mummers, running through the sand to gaze upon the strangers that entered their land was soothing, and I had forgotten about the blistering trip that we encountered on the way here. It wasn’t long before we were surrounded: eyes of wonder, smiles of hope illuminated our view as they edged closer to us. The sound of the other members of the crew broke the harmonious state that I quickly found myself in; I rapidly caught a glimpse of their shiny new water bottles that I could see was being held out in glee. It was almost as if it were a trophe, a prized possession that we had labourously worked for. Suddenly, my dry cracked mouth broke the serenity that I was bathing in, and raging thirst plummeted through my body. I need water.

I laugh to myself, looking back at it now. Need is such a big word, it certainly wasn’t apt for the situation that I was in; we had drunk plenty in the car, albiet being a bit warm and fuzzy, but it was still water nevertheless. How selfish was I? How selfish was I, that I felt entitled to have it, when the children in front of me have had none, for the entire day.

Ah, the look in their eyes, the longing was indescribable – if only you were there. None of this is an exaggeration, God is my only witness to what happened next..

With a guilty selfish heart, I gave one of the boys that were surrounding me a bottle, clearly seeing the hunger that inhabited his eyes. Expecting him to gulp it all down, just as I did, I was in utter shock to see him delicately open the lid, and pass the bottle around to those around him. Each one had a calculated sip, so that everyone could enjoin in this splendour. Finally, as he had done his rounds, with a smile of triumph, he brought the bottle to his lips and took the last drop.

Thats when it hit me.

That level of selflessness is only achievable because he could empathise how they felt, for it was a reality that he was living himself. He knew the pangs of their thirst from the inside out, whereas I saw it from the external, he could feel it.

In July, we will be climbing 3 mountains in a day, in order to raise money for a sustainable micro dam in Mali, so that everyone can have what is a necessity we take for granted.

This Ramadan, I’ve consistently come across ayahs of God complaining that we don’t take heed to His blessings. By God this is true. We aren’t and will never be grateful enough for everything that He has given us.

If we don’t help them, who will? Who’s there to share their stories? Who’s there to capture their struggles?
I would love for you to be a part of this and join me in this journey towards providing a basic necessity to those who need it the most.

https://y3p19.everydayhero.com/uk/aneesah

Please give whatever you can, and spread the word by sharing my page with your friends and family. Thank you in advance for your generosity, it means more than you know, not for me, but for them. Please do look at the videos and pictures below. May God accept it, and allow us to be the coolness to their eyes. Ameen.

This picture was taken in Senegal, when Human Appeal International blessed us with the opportunity to see their projects.

This was our team, the beautiful souls.

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Now

This is so powerful.

All we have is now, not tomorrow, not next week, not next month, not even the next minute. Now. If we believe we do have long, then know that you’re under an illusion. And that illusion, if taken as a reality, can be very detrimental.

I suffer from procrastination. I always did, always do – I’m the queen of it, sadly (may God rectify my soul). But how many times have I pushed back something, or prolonged doing an action because I didn’t live in the moment, but in the future. Living in the now is something I’m trying to work on, trying to see what’s in front of me, not getting caught up with what’s gone and not getting tangled in the web of anxiety of what’s to come.

Just enjoying this moment, right here, right now. Make the most of it, because we don’t know when our time will be written.. when our soul will be taken back, even that, is a thought that scares me. Death is the only thing that’s definite, it’s the only thing we can guarantee will happen. So what are you doing to prepare? Live in the now, thinking that it will be your last moment… How powerful is that?

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Blessed Intervention

“I was made for this”

He had said, as he prostrated and placed his head, in a raised sujood in front of the Lord, his ultimate love for us he bled.

My Ummah, My Ummah”

He cried, begging our Lord to let us through, hoping that our Iman can show true. First a seed, then an atom, then a confirmation he will plead. Oh how we have such an inspiration that will lead!

On that day, everyone will be selfish, their nafs overtaking. Mothers will drop their babies, every soul will be shaking. Their bones will be quivering in fear, the only solace that they will have is that their Rasool is near.

How do we show his love in our everyday life? How do we avoid desolation, on that day when we are meant to be praising and celebrating his legacy?

I was made for this”

But, are you made for his intercession? Are you worthy of his blessed intervention? Through the waves of chaos, the crowds of people – how can you be sure, that it is you that he will mention?

“I was made for this”

His words ring in my head, I’m trying to make it penetrate into my heart of led, oh Allah allow us to be a beacon of his message, allow us to love endlessly fuelled by his unwavering care and mercy.

Allow us, to be a part of his Ummah. Ameen.

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Dedication.

I pray that your noble intentions be elevated
and life objectives be facilitated,
as you continue to do all that you do,
Let your heart soar and taste every experience that there can be,
May you be protected from hearts that are not humbled,
tongues that are not wise,
and eyes that have forgotten how to cry,
May your successes of today be the first of many
and may you be granted more success on every tomorrow that you see,
May your ears listen to the song of happiness,
Love till you feel numb.
and may you wear your beautiful smile with pride.
Remember that your eyes can change a nation,
Your words can reside in peoples thoughts for eternity,
as it leaves a scar in history.
Go out and change the world,
Be the best that you can be.
and know that you are ever so imperfectly perfect,
to me.
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Speak, and the universe will react.
Align your actions with your intentions
and watch your life become breathtaking.

Speak, and the …

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