It’s okay

More times than not, I’ve found myself in a never ending ferocious cycle, it goes something like this…

1. Something happens.

2. I get agitated/upset/annoyed and I let it engulf me.

3. My response to that, is based upon what I can see in my bubble; I fail to acknowledge the consequences that go beyond what I can see, lacking foresight.

4. Upon realising what I’ve done and how my response only encompassed me, and not thinking about the other, I drown myself in a sea of self pity and regret.

5. I cultivate a fear of repeating that action, instead of growing from it, and thus, my development is stunted because I don’t want to come face to face with the truth.

And that, ladies and gentlemen, is the bane of my life. As much as I love seeking out about my weaknesses, it’s still never a nice encounter. No-one ever wants to be face to face with their ugliest self, and face the true reality of what lurks within.

Me trying to run away from myself, and running away from my vices isn’t doing me any favours. Actually, what I’m doing is that I’m running away from my potential. I’m running away from the person I can be. I’m running away from growth. Instead of battling it, I push the dagger deeper into my back, and let it pierce my heart, endlessly.

So, this is a reminder for myself first and foremost, and anyone else who can relate, that its okay to make mistakes, it’s okay not to be perfect, it’s okay to meet your demons, just don’t let your demons defeat you. Fight them with every inch of yourself, and know that you are more than that.

It’s really, and truly, okay.

If you really knew me..

Today I did a lesson with my little dumplings about who they are and what makes them unique for a unit on Death. We cut up little pieces of card and they had to write a secret fact about themselves that no-one else knows starting with “If you really knew me…”
These were some of the heart piercing ones that came back to me.

Never underestimate the feelings of kids, never underestimate mental stability, and never, for a second, take anything in your life for granted.

“I cry for my mum and dad at night when no-one sees me”

I’m scared of being by myself

You see, someti…

You see, sometimes you have to ignore the words that are spoken and listen to the feeling that is speaking.
Each letter, each syllable, is an attempt to call out to you.

Dedication.

I pray that your noble intentions be elevated
and life objectives be facilitated,
as you continue to do all that you do,
Let your heart soar and taste every experience that there can be,
May you be protected from hearts that are not humbled,
tongues that are not wise,
and eyes that have forgotten how to cry,
May your successes of today be the first of many
and may you be granted more success on every tomorrow that you see,
May your ears listen to the song of happiness,
Love till you feel numb.
and may you wear your beautiful smile with pride.
Remember that your eyes can change a nation,
Your words can reside in peoples thoughts for eternity,
as it leaves a scar in history.
Go out and change the world,
Be the best that you can be.
and know that you are ever so imperfectly perfect,
to me.
~
♥

Speak, and the …

Speak, and the universe will react.
Align your actions with your intentions
and watch your life become breathtaking.
♥